Never again!!!

I'm writing this down hoping that I will never get to a point where I drink too much.

Dammit.

Scientific facts about love part 2!

I just wrote an entry on this before.... interesting scientific facts about love!

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2010/10/101022184957.htm


http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/03/090317153039.htm

Questions

I often get a lot of the same questions so I guess I should write down my sarcastic answers.

Why is your name so long?  Ask my mom, because she wanted me suffer my whole school life when writing my name.

Why are you so skinny? Hmmm.... because you're fat and it makes me look skinny

Why are you so skinny even though you eat 3 times more than I do? Oh that's simple.... I have a million angry aliens living in my belly that would eat me alive if I don't eat.

Why do you sleep late? Because I am a vampire and when the sun rises that's when I sleep.

Why do you like ninjas? Because I am one.

I just feel like being sarcastic today.

On betrayal...

A few months ago, a person whom I considered as one of my good friends betrayed my trust. Everything that friend and I shared just seemed fake now.

I have a very sweet personality and I am genuinely kind, but betrayal is an issue that I do not easily forgive. It wasn't something minimal like telling my secrets but something that would definitely shake and hurt me to the point that I am no longer friends with that person. There are only a few things that would make me block people away from me. I have blocked out  two people and purged them out of my life. This is my 3rd.

As sad as it sounds, even if I had fond memories, I will obliterate those memories. Something fake is not worth remembering. Connections will be severed. I made other friends through this person and I was close to this former friend's family, I will no longer be associated with a betrayer. If they think I am extreme in my decision, sorry, but I'm looking out for myself. Besides why would I want to attach myself to negativity and drama?

I am very happy with my life right now, without that "friend". So if you're reading this, I can see that you've been googling my blog name, who else would do that but you. I don't trust you and I feel that I don't know you. Please stay away from me because if I see you I might slap your face.... Yes, I am that angry with you. I said what I needed to say and please stop snooping around my blog since I blocked you from facebook.

Slight revision to blog content....

Ok when I first started this blog, my goal was to write about every restaurant and food item that's unique. But it doesn't seem that way now. Life happened and I started writing about different things like school, rants, life and poetry. I'll try to stick to the food theme now but I'll still have little rants and ramblings.

I will soon write about things that I actually make or what my mom and I make.... the holidays are coming and there will be many parties to attend and food to create and devour.

I think I have 2 or 3 readers... har har har... but if anyone has a suggestion on what to cook drop a comment and I'll try making it when school life decides to give me some time.

10/17/2010

You're spending time with one person,
and you absolutely do nothing,
Often you don't say anything...
You sit side by side, reading a book or studying.
But you leave, with a smile plastered on your face
Feeling like it's the best day out of your week
That is what you call real happiness.

I hope every couple will experience this kind of happiness throughout their relationship.

On giving gifts...

I do things because I like to do things. I don't do it for approval. I don't do it to impress people. I do it because I am me. I am a very frank and straight forward person, so pretty much everything that I do is straight forward. I don't have any hidden agendas. What you see is what you get.

I give gifts to friends sometimes out of the blue. Why? Just because I appreciate them, because I feel they need a picker-upper, because I feel he/she would like the item, because I have no other reason but just to show I care. I do it because I feel good doing it.

My gifts can be little things from notebooks, to genuine gestures or even tasks... I don't really need anything in return. I'm already happy :)

THE DICKHEAD SONG (Funny original REVENGE song) by Miles Betterman

You came into my life and tried to do me wrong
So in return for that I have sent you this song
It tells you what I think and how I feel about you
So take a seat and listen up cos every single word is true

Dickhead, you're such a dickhead
And everybody knows it everyone but you
You're a dickhead, I hope you'll soon be dead
And this is payback time for what you put me through

The way you behaved was a total disgrace
I'd never grow tired of punching your face
You think that putting me down lifts you higher
I wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire

You think you're better than me well you're not my friend
I'll get further in life than you in the end
You're nothing you're worthless just dirt on my shoe
Wherever you go whatever you do people will sing this song to you

Dickhead, you're such a dickhead
And everybody knows it everyone but you
You're a dickhead, I hope you'll soon be dead
And this is payback time for what you put me through

God will punish you cos you reap what you sow
You're a vile individual from head to toe
Nasty to the bone unpleasant to the core
I shall drink champagne when you are no more

If I never see your face again that's too soon
I've never met anyone so suited to this tune
I hope your friends desert you and your health is poor
This is what I think you are 1 2 3 4

Dickhead, you're such a dickhead
And everybody knows it everyone but you
You're a dickhead, I hope you'll soon be dead
And this is payback time for what you put me through

I wouldn't even give you the steam from my piss
As far as I'm concerned you can swivel on this
You're simply jealous of me but I couldn't care less
Cos I have all the qualities you'll never possess

I'd hate to go through life as you 24/7
Cos people like you don't end up in Heaven
You will rot in Hell that's where you belong
And when you get there they'll be singing this song

You're a dickhead, such a dickhead
And everybody knows it everyone but you
You're a dickhead, we're all glad you're dead
And so is everyone that you ever knew

Dickhead, you're such a dickhead
And everybody knows it everyone but you
You're a dickhead, everybody's said
I hope you liked the song so, SCREW YOU!

Here is my secret. It is very simple: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.

"Little Prince" Antoine de Saint Exupéry

"One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving" - Paulo Coelho

Does liking someone equal to loving someone? If it is then does liking someone need a reason?

I for one am a logical and practical person. I think there has to be a reason why you like or love someone. As unromantic as it sounds, I feel like I need a reason. Feelings are fleeting. You can like a person because he or she is something new. If we go the scientific route (and various studies have proven it) biochemicals such as norepinephrine, serotonin, dopamine and oxytocin produces that feeling of love produces the sensations we feel when we are in love. Evolutionary psychology also has a different take on love. Love fades away in approximately two years because mates fulfilled their obligation when their offspring can live on their own (approximately 2 years in primates). My point? How does a relationship last? I was told a relationship lasts because you develop a bond stronger than love. You develop a friendship. It is almost like a business relationship. You give and take with your partner and everything will be successful.

Heh, I was just told I'm too logical to be a woman. meh.

Father's Office

So ever since I started Grad School I haven't really had the chance to explore new restaurants to write about. Not to mention I don't really have that much funds to spend to support my expensive hobby. But I am glad I was able to visit Father's Office again.

Father's office is a Gastropub famous for their beer selection and their Office Burger. They have two locations, one in Santa Monica and one in LA. I prefer the LA branch since it's bigger and more room to enjoy. The bartender was really friendly and very helpful. He was very knowledgeable with the different beers they served.

I haven't been back at Father's Office for almost a year and damn, the burger is still as good as I remembered. Dry-aged meat, gruyere, Maytag Blue, arugula, caramelized onions and bacon. Oh the sweet-salty combination of the onions and the bacon oh so good. The meat was medium-rare, just the way I like it and was so juicy. Oh so superb.

The sweet potato fries was up next. I think this was my favorite out of all the things we ordered. The fries was exactly the way I wanted. Nice and crispy. It had an herb and salt mixture tossed into the fries and the accompanying roasted garlic, blue cheese aioli was just the perfect dip for the fries. Oh, I was already in heaven.

Since I'm Asian, and I was with a couple of other Asians, we had to try the bone marrow dish! It came with a small caper-parsley salad that at first I thought was just decoration. This was good too. But I was not blown away.

I paired my dish with the Speckled Hen Beer, a dark beer that was creamy and light. The Hefs they had were pretty good as well. All in all my verdict for Father's Office. 5 stars. :)

On Friends....

Friends are important to me. My friends keep me well-rounded and they've been my support ever since I entered Grad school. I will never replace them and I promised myself I will never place them second when I'm in a relationship. If it comes to choosing between friends and a relationship. I choose friends.

"Come and join my merry band of misfits and thieves..... "

On love....

I used to fall in love quickly and deeply... I've learned to do it on a slower pace.... I will take my time and I'm not going to rush into things...When I fall in love again.... When I choose to love you, I promise you, it will definitely by visible  and it will be just as deep.

I have my walls up... and it's probably really high and thick. It'll take time tearing it down.  Not to mention, I think I have trust issues. Like I said in a previous post  I will no longer set myself up in another fake love. I don't want to fall in love and be shot down when I least expect it. I don't want to fall in love, and realize that there is no compatibility between my significant other and I. I don't want to fall in love and find out that his ideals are not the same like mine.... like, marriage, religion, politics and aspiring for more ambitious things. I want to to know that we have the same views so that in the long run we have something deep to talk about and not just anything shallow. I just don't want to go through that whole rollercoaster that we call Love, just to find out it was all for naught. I read once, an average relationship between a girlfriend/boyfriend is two years. I want more than that.

When I fall in love again, it's because I know it's because he will never hurt me, he will never leave me for any stupid or falsified reason. I just want to feel secure that we both want it to last. I will fall in love because we are compatible in every way. No immaturity in emotions or in life. I want to be able to trust him, that he can take care of me not just physically and financially but also emotionally. Don't get me wrong, after my degree, I know I"ll be making it big., and I can pull my own weight, I just want to know that he won't be a slacker because I know I won't be one.

I want a permanent love, not just temporary. I fall in love, because I am hoping that someday I can find my life partner that I would like to marry. I'm not saying the moment I fall in love, I want to get married right away, that's crazy talk. But I do want, that when I'm with that person, he'll probably want the same too. I know I'm not getting married anytime soon but I don't want to waste anyone's time... I don't want to waste my time, for another temporary love.

When I fall in love, I want to be happy and most especially I want him to be just as happy.

It takes courage to love.
To jump into the unknown
and only trust the person you love.