A Poem About my Grad Program

Intake sheet, intake sheet--
How will I make thee?
Lesson plans and research papers,
I'll have to write all three.
Books and articles are piling on top
Testing and presentations oh please just stop.
To complete this crazy program,
Shed blood, sweat, tears and pray
But Screw it all people
When is my time to play?

*bow*

On mending a broken heart

I'm not claiming to be a relationship guro. But these are things that I did/do to make me feel happy. I feel so much better than a few months ago. I still have my moments but nothing extreme. I'm loving where my life is at right now.

Out of sight.
Out of Mind.
Out of thought.
Leave all behind.

Don't ruminate.
Don't hope against hope
Yet don't close your heart
and don't learn to hate

Learn to sit with your feelings
Even though it's uncomfortable
Cry when you need to
But don't let it overwhelm you
It's all part of healing

Put up a facade if you must
Smile your biggest smile
and learn to laugh
because someday you'll realize
your smile and laughter
are real

Sometimes what we want.... we really don't.

If you really think about it, sometimes what we want, we really don't and sometimes who we love, we really don't either......

I was happy but things didn't turn out quite right. I just need to learn to let go, the right person is out there. I know that.

To complicate things, I just happen to be in another predicament with another person as I juggle with the previous one. I should be a master juggler.

I just can't wait for this roller coaster ride to end.

Lady bugs! Lady bugs

It's fun hanging out with my friend aka "Cuppies". Cuppies is an awesome baker and makes spectacular, delectable, scrumptious, mouthwatering tantalizing cupcakes!!! Hence, the nick name "Cuppies". Did I mention her designs are awesome?? I'm getting hungry just thinking of the deliciousness of her cupcakes!!! drool.....


The picture to the left of this blog is her actual product. Isn't it pretty? She makes cakes too! She can do your wedding cake or even a birthday cake. I really recommend her for any party that you have. :)

Little advertisement here... but go to her website... Dessert Fusion. She has a list of all her flavors, filling and even pictures of her past work.

But anyway, since Cuppies lives 6 minutes away from me, I've been spending time at her house almost every night. Last night we made Ladybug themed cup cakes. I had so much fun making the lady bugs and also the flowers. I hope the people who gets to see it will enjoy the beauty and at the same time enjoy eating it. All pictures posted on this entry are owned by Dessert Fusion.

First Day of internship

So it was the first day of my practicum/internship. Whatever you want to call it. It was a good experience so far. I like my supervisor.

hmmm.... next?

It's been a while

So my last blurb was back in October. Shit happened. 10 days after I wrote the previous entry the bf and I broke up... Ah life.... so now, my ex will be referred to as "the Art Director" for any future reference in this blog. We're good friends but I'm not ready to hang out and mingle.

So I guess life is telling me that my next adventure is to be single.... hey, I'm loving it so far. Many things happened since then, I cried, I cried some more. I had fun. I enjoyed stuff. Holidays arrived and had gone by.... it was ok. Finally I'm picking up the pieces of my brokern heart. I went snowboarding, made cupcakes... what else? Met a few new people and moving on with life.

Today, though.... seriously Tornado warnings in California? Apparently, Tornadoes appeared in Long Beach and Costa Mesa! Oh wow.

Oh and the food.... I recently had a 3x3 burger animal style with animal style from In-n-Out with animal style fries. So good. mmm....

Will try to write more.... Grad school is awesome.

Living the good life

I am pretty satisfied with life right now. So I want to write down how much I love it before I start bitching and get panic attacks when school starts getting hectic.

In this chapter of my life, I'm having the greatest time. Life is good and sweet. Living on my own and loving it. Great family, who supports and loves me. A new nephew that I hopefully get to play with. Brothers I can depend on when I need help. Cousins who make everything fun and happy. Great friends that also support me and are fun companions. A great school that makes me feel like I matter and I'm on top of the world, plus awarding me a scholarship! A great boyfriend who makes me feel i'm number 1 in his eyes. I love him dearly. Just many things to be thankful for. :)

love, love everything. i'm happy..... on to the next adventure: What's next after graduating?